Feck. I have a cold sore. Yesterday, I was so completely exhausted I couldn’t get out of bed for most of the day. Then I woke up from my nap with a cold sore on my chin. Buggery doo dah. I felt pretty crap. I began google searching “cold sore” and “IVF” to see if others have had the same issue and it turns out that it’s not uncommon for people to have cold sores whilst going through this process. It’s hard to know whether the likelihood is greater during a stim cycle or whether the simple stress of this whole thing caused it to happen. Today, Day 4, I felt much better though and even managed to walk across the Brooklyn Bridge to Manhattan to go meet a friend for brunch, and then met up with another friend for a walk in the park. I’m still pretty knackered though and wishing that my body was cooperating a little better. But, I simply can’t control this process and I know that I have to sit back and let the drugs do their thing and hope for the best. This evening, when I injected the Menopur, it kind of hurt. I mean, it always hurts of course, but it really really stung, and then when I withdrew the needle, I started bleeding. Yuck!! I wonder if I hit a blood vessel.
I always have trouble getting to bed early, but tonight I’m going to try and lie in goddess pose for a bit in bed, listen to my Circle and Bloom IVF meditation mp3s and read my book “Guns, Germs and Steel” by Jared Diamond – a simply amazing book about the history of humankind. I wish I knew what was going on inside me right now.